i know…

i know because im looking at you.

does anything else actually matter?

the saddest

the saddest part of life is not being able to fix the people you love.

 

you cannot cure the people you care for, of pain.

 

 

the thing is…

everything slips, slips, slips along.

so much news.

some of it good.

some of it bad.

very bad.

some of it involving my knee.

some of it involving my things of which knee may be part of the word.

but i won’t reveal.

work is so busy. so good. so many good things happening because of good friends.

i keep swimming.

i keep strong.

i keep faith in the ideal that good will win through.

just once. like it has for me before.

like it must do again.

like it shall.

i read these and i thought of you.

i always think of you.

 

this picture will mean nothing

to you.

but it does to me.

your smile lights up a world you don’t even know.

this is me

That’ll seem like a random picture to you. Pretty, but also pretty random.

To me, it’s not though. To me, it sums up where I am right now. Staring up at that great big sky, wondrous place.

And I am left thinking…

Thinking of how grateful I am. For every single moment of this insane life I have been blessed with.

With waking up to see my daughter’s ginormous grin. To hugging my friends. to random phonecalls that mean the world, but where nothing is said, and everything is understood.

Where I don’t need to explain, and as a result, I don’t need to complain.

What I do need to do though, is soak it all in, love every second.

You make it so easy, all of you. With the smiles and the understanding.

With the un-demands. And with the demands.

I sabotage none of me, and give all of me. It’s easy when I am loved.

This blogpost started out completely differently. I was going to respond to something. But, a little voice within me affirmed that I didn’t need to. All I needed to say was:

Unapologetically Alive. That’s me. I am solidly footed in gratitude.

Thank you.

Fodder Friday

Stole this from Angel

1. Who was your first prom date?

Er. The first dance I ever went to was with a boy called Robert. Kudos, me, for avoiding the biblical names that time round. I’ve seen the photos, though. Remind me to never go goth again? kthx

2. Do you still talk to your first love?

Yes. Weirdly. He’s my best mate’s ex too. Everybody say “weird”. But, yes, smile-e and I still talk. Daily.

3. What was your first alcoholic drink?

Peach Schnapps. GAH

4. What was your first job?

Video Store Assistant. Alot of Ass-sitting

5. What was your first car?

No, we don’t talk about that 

6. Who was the first person to text you today?

Cath

7. Who was the first person you thought of this morning?

Larcy

8. Who was your first grade teacher?

Er. Ms Chislett. Yes.

9. Where did you go on your first flight in a plane?

When I was a little mite.

10. Who was your first best friend and do you still talk?

Charlene. And yes, we do.

11. Where was your first sleepover?

Um. I think it was at Tracy’s house Wah. Infamous.

12. Who was the first person you talked to today?

Cameron

13. Whose wedding were you in for the first time?

Guess what? I’ve successfully avoided bridal parties all my life by being pregnant or on the other side of the world when they happen. this run ends soon, though, when Seh the Boobs makes me walk down the aisle before her. For her, I’ll do it though.

14. What was the first thing you did this morning?

Tweet. Tweet.

15. What was the first concert you went to?

Shit. First concert type thing? Concert in the park. First concert concert? Bon Jovi. Alanis Morissette. Def Leppard.

16. First tattoo?

A spiral on my ass

17. First piercing?

Ears. I have no piercings now

18. First foreign country you went to?

Haven’t left

19. First movie you remember seeing?

Weirdly. I don’t

20. What state did you first live in?

Where I am now

21. Who was your first room mate?

First room-mate? Would be Tam. First person ever brave enough to live with me? Allan. And he still knows me better by facebook status than anyone. To him, I say “insert guit sideways” *codespeak(

22. When was your first detention?

Standard 5. Don’t tell my mother.

23. If you had one wish what would it be?

For Cam to never know hurt.

24. What is one thing you would learn, given the chance?

How to say no to people

25. What was the name of your imaginary friend?

Ask my sister. wah.

Hello October

Let’s get laughing.

Snigger 1

Snigger 2

I SAID SNIGGER.

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thing that bugs me…

So you’re at dinner, you pay the bill, they bring the little wicky-wicky card machine and the slip says…

“WELCOME TO XYZ RESTAURANT”

Um. Okay, think about this one… if you’re paying the bill, surely they should’ve welcomed you WAY beforehand. If you’re paying the bill, you’re finished eating and leaving so why the hang are they welcoming you now?

mmm?

That’s my sunday random thought from underneath the table.

p.s. i  meant to say it, but didn’t because i’m a gigantic wuss. truth is, that was a burger that saved the world. truth is though, the company did too. thank you. that is all. (yes, this is about you).

my new favourite word

Copyright – me:

paranoise – when the voices in your head keep telling you that they’re watching you.

whahah. sometimes i crack myself up.

/random.